Watching my P's & Q's

Can I leave work now? I don't want anyone seeing me with tears rolling down my face. I can't concentrate, I don't want to be here, I can't breathe and I just want to hide again from the world. It's always my problem. Am I the black sheep? I certainly feel like that is a true statement. I don't fit in, here, there or anywhere. Fuck! Close the curtains! Where's the door?