The GF makes me smile

So I didn't get to talk to my love again before my seminar, I missed her a whole lot! She sent me a message though, which always is the highlight of my day and night! Just hearing from my baby, my face lights up! I become the happiest person in the world - well it's because she does that to me! I love the fact that we both think so much alike with our need you know songs - fall just makes you want to cuddle up with your love and never ever let go! I love her so!

Keeping busy

So my gf and I had a little skype on skype action this morning when I got up. We were just talking you pervs!!! My gf is really busy with her school work and I'm busy with my photography so it all works out. If i just sit around and do nothing, I get so bored and don't know what to do and all I can do I get all sad missing my gf. So later this afternoon, I'm going to another photography seminar and I'm really excited to see some pin up photography! Until then, I'm editing pics and waiting for my baby to come online. I miss her beautiful face and sweet sexy voice! <3

New Girl

So I've been watching Zooey Deschanel's new tv show and it's only the 2nd episode, but so far it's pretty awesome! People can totally relate to it, I do and I know all of you do, whose been in a relationship were they had their heartbroken the hard way. In the beginning of the show she tries to please her bf. She comes home wearing just a trench jacket and starts dancing. She turns around and drops her jacket, naked, then realizes that her bf isn't alone. He's with another girl. So she ends up having to find new roommates to live with because her asshole of a bf is fooling around with a little whore.

In the second episode, the roommates that she lives with, she ends up breaking their flat screen tv. She doesn't have money to replace the tv and her roommates ask her if she has a tv. She tells them that she has a huge flat screen tv, but it's at her exes house. Her roommates tell her to get the tv back, but she tells them there is no way she's going to call him. Her roommates convince her again to get the tv back, she hesitates and tells them that she will get the tv.

So Jess meets up with her bf and tries to talk to him about getting her tv back and what happens is she feels so weak around him. She doesn't get the tv back, but she ends up having to drive her bf and his new gf to the airport because they only ride bikes. Her roommates call her a wimp for not being able to get the tv back. They tell her the reason that she doesn't want to try to get the tv back is because she feels that if she does get it, then the relationship would be done. So her roommate tells her to be strong and gives her a pep talk on all the reasons why she should be pissed about him and demand her tv back. Jess has it in her mind now, that she will get her tv and things back from her douche bag of an ex bf.

Here's the best lines from the scene, that I love, where she's getting her stuff back and finally getting closure (if you haven't seen this show, I suggest you watch it to understand what I'm talking about - and also it's really good)!

Jess: It's over.

Jess: I spent 6 years trying to figure you out.

Jess: All you are is a guy with really beautiful hair.

Jess: I'm happy you cheated on me. Thank you...because...if you hadn't, I would've married you. And then you would have hurt me all over again. (Deep breath) And yeah I was scared to start over. I didn't know what to do. And yeah, I'm living with 3 guys I met on the internet. And yeah stranger danger is real, but I love these guys. I barely know them, I just met him. But I love them. All of them.

Spence: You know I thought we were gonna handle this like adults, Jess.

Jess: Yeah, well I thought you were the love of my life, so...suck it Mr. Crabs!

You go girl!!! You tell him!!  Here's the funny trailer from the show: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLbVOHG1Png

Keeping up with the Blog

So I've been extremely busy lately that it's hard to update my blog, but I'm going to try to write more than one blog a day. Usually I try to write a blog before I go to sleep but I end up crashing on the bed and my iphone hits my face, but i'm so lazy to even get up so I end up waking up to my phone without battery! Stay tuned people!

Saturday Funday

So I was invited by Jesse to a football party on Saturday. I didn't get to Chris' house until like 5ish because of course I got lost getting there with my great sense of directions! Well I actually got some Chicago style hotdog at the metra before I headed out to Wicker Park. Well an hour later I got to Wicker Park and there were people chillin' on the sofa watching the Bears on the huge screen tv. Lorian was there too sitting and watching the game and Jesse was asking earlier if Lorian and I were still cool. I said yes we are, we always remained good friends since we broke up. I finally tasted a mimosa that my gf kept mentioning to me about, it was freaking delicious she was right!

Well the bears lost the game and Jesse left early so I hung out with Chris and his sister and her husband. Chris was showing me the photography that he had taken in his hometown, Poland. Also I saw some pics that he had also taken in Spain. He says that his photos are just amateur but it looks so professional! Lorian and I were talking on the balcony, he's like how's Dawn? I said she's fine, she lives where he used to live. He's like, lets go visit her. So we headed out to Dawn's place, but before that we stopped to get some wine. We were talking about how we both feel we don't belong in the US. He was saying how he's got an interview in NY this week for a job as a sound mixer in Bucharest, Romania. He was like if he gets the job there, I can go visit. That'll be awesome! He was also saying how he gets along with people who aren't american and I was telling him that I feel the same. We then were talking about our exes. He said that him and Elise were on and off for 2 yrs and that she was a beautiful woman but was too clingy and she got a bit crazy towards the end. She was knocking on his back door porch, actually pounding on his door, that it got to the point that he had to call the police on her. He was saying how he felt so relieved after they broke up and didn't think he would feel better. He said he felt so free. I told him that I always knew he was a free spirit. He told me that the girl couldn't ever be alone and she went to Japan with her new bf. I saw her pics, damn she moves fast. He's right she's very insecure. I told him that in my relationship, I felt depressed and hidden. I told him it took me a year to finally get over her and he told me that should be right and enough time. I told him I don't feel that anymore and I feel great to have someone who is open about us and then some.

We got to my cousin, Dawn's house and we drank wine, chilled and talk the whole time. I got to the point where I was almost wasted. I couldn't walk straight! I was having fun though, I had a great time! Dawn was so happy to see Lorian again. I think we hung out there until 1am in the morning and we headed out to get some food. We at some good ass mexican food and then I slept over. I was so lazy to go to work, I didn't wake up until 10am in the morning and wasn't sure I was gonna go in. Well I left Lorian's place and barely caught the train but made it! Lorian texted me to see if I got to the train. I told him, yeah I sprinted to it! Anyways, so I did end up going to work for about an hour. I thought it was a waste of my time, but I went anyways. After work, I headed out with a friend of mine to eat dinner and walk around to go shopping. I enjoyed myself again with great food from Joyee's yum! I had another great time with beautiful company. We visited the Home Alone house and it was so amazing to see in real life! I tried to get a pic, but it was so late at night that you couldn't see anything even though it was all lighted up. I'm going to have to go back when there is light to take pics. You could see inside, there was furniture and all it looked beautiful. No one lives there, the house is for sale. It used to be $2.4 million, but now the economy went down it's now $1.2 million. So I guess me and girl can buy that house together ha ha! Our plans is to move to LA in about 6 yrs because she loves Cali and so do I! It's either there or NY. Even though, I had beautiful company, I missed my girlfriend a whole lot! When I left Dawn's house, she looked at my phone and was like is that her? I said yeah, she's like she's so pretty. She was like she's so pretty. She was like she could be a sister of Sofia. Awkward.

From my babe

<3

Still in the city

Well I guess I'll finish up my blog later.

On the same page

The best thing about me and my sweet love? We think a lot alike <3 She's the only one I care about, the rest can go suck it! I'm so thankful to have gotten out of the dark hole that I had been buried in for so long and I don't need that. I deserve this girl, the one who makes me feel invincible and gets me so excited the moment I hear from her. I love getting notifications from her on fb and I love it when it's her name on the top of my fb messages (and that's where she belongs - at the top of my list...ALWAYS)! I love my baby so much!!!!

Unreliable

I'm a bit pissed that I wrote a blog yesterday and it got wiped out for whatever reason! Ugh! So I'll have to rewrite it again tomorrow. I'm too annoyed and tired to write now. FU blogger!!!

Randomness

All I can say is that my babe's got style, she's ultra femme, the girliest girl...she's sweet with a bit of an edge...she's got a great sense of humor and she makes me smile. She brought the light into my life and jump started my heart again. I am incredibly happy and you can't imagine how she makes me smile. Well if you had seen my previous blogs you could catch a glimpse of how she makes me smile and how I make her smile! She is the one I truly love!

So my gf was telling me a story of when she was cleaning the kitchen. She was on the floor bent over and got up and saw this girl giving her the dirtiest look. This guy next to the girl was just staring at my babe the whole time. So the girl went up to my baby and asked if she had a bf, still giving her a dirty look. My baby realized that the guy next to this girl (whom were both Italian) that they were together. So my baby inside was laughing at the girl knowing exactly what was going on. So my love tells the girl that she doesn't have a bf, that she's got a gf and that she's gay. So the Italian girl started smiling and was like, "oh you're gay!" The bf was disappointed and was like, "what you're gay?" Just had to share that funny story, I loved it. I really love how open my sexy gf is, it's just so awesome how free she is. I love her really...so so much!

Friendly with the bff

...cuz you have to get in good with the gf's, bff because they are like family and it's important to the relationship! Anyways, got nothing to worry about because my baby doesn't have anything bad to say about me...we're happy & in love! Plus, we tell everything....and I mean EVERYTHING - we don't leave out any detail, nothing to hide (and I'm not bad...well only in a good way ;] ) ! So below are the comments to the first foto of my baby (which I love) from my previous blog before this one. I love teasing my baby! =]

Loving all 175 cm of my babe!

Best photo with my baby looking like she's walking out of a magazine cover! <3 She's just amazingly gorgeous. Subject beautiful! Background beautiful! Look at the 2 pics below. 2nd pic is of her bff from hs (on left) who came to visit from Greece and the other is her other bff who lives in Greece but in Lamia (on right) but goes to school with her. I really love her stolen shots...she makes my heart skip a beat! <3<3<3

New pics, new favs!

So click to enlarge the 2 images below...me and my girl continued our conversation later at night. My baby was cleaning up the kitchen for about 5 hrs and just finished as I im'd her. Well she actually just finished her shower and was satisfied. She's a neat, clean freak! =] My baby's so adorable! Also the pic underneath is my new fav foto of my love and is my new pic on my phone! I'm in love! <3

Today 9.18.11

Click on pic to view the pic of the most beautiful girl in the world!!! See how happy she makes me! Big smiles! <3<3 My hair looks short, but it's just because i'm in black. 

Return to sender

I received my package from my ex with the things that I had given her. It used to feel like not so long ago that I had been so madly and deeply in love with her. Now it seems like it's been forever since we were an item and in love. The little love is book that I had made when I was in 7th grade and had given to her in 2007 was something special to me. I went through the book again and realized I had customized it even more for Sofia. I forgot I had done that.

I thought it was a sweet gesture, just looking back on it. I just don't know what to do with it. I can't give that away ever again. I look back on those things I gave and It showed how much I cared and really loved her. I thought that she was going to be my forever. It's weird how once we used to be so close and couldn't be apart and now it's like we are complete strangers. I'm just another person to her I once knew.

Isn't it weird how life turns out that way? People come and go in and out of your life and it seems like they were just a dream. Life and love works in mysterious ways. I can truly say I've loved many times before, but there are many different kinds of love that I had felt before. The way I feel for my gf now is how I had felt about Sofia. The others well the other 2 I had loved them, but it wasn't completely the same. It involves more than a friendship and caring type of love, which I had for 2 of my ex bf's. With Sofia and my baby, not only did I care about them and embraced their friendship, I felt and feel emotionally connected in a romantic way. I feel everything and that's the difference of the kinds of love I have with women than I have had with men.

I don't know where I'm actually going with my thoughts here, but all these things had crossed my mind when I had opened that package that Sofia had sent me. It's 3 minutes to 1 o'clock in the morning and I have annoying tears that keeps running down my right eye. With that said, it means that I'm freaking tired and going to sleep. Goodnight.

She's one to talk

My baby's new photos that her bff's bro took in Abdn are so gorgeous and makes me fall in love with her all over again. I just want to steal a kiss and she tells me the same of my foto but she's the one who got me going crazy!!! Crazy for my baby!

Name Day

Yesterday was my baby's name day, though she doesn't really go by that name ever since she was small. Her mom was mad at her dad for picking up that  name, but her mom gave her the Russian name from her grandma's side - which suits her perfectly (and that's what she goes by). My baby is a beautiful flower and is unique amongst all others! I'm in so deeply in love with her con toda mi corazon! <3

Come baby come baby...

Baby come come to Chicago!!! <3 It would be so awesome if my love went to school here!

Green eyes...you're the one I wanted to find!

My baby's eyes are so hypnotizing. She's got the greenest and most beautiful eyes I've seen. Green eyes are way better than blue. My ex, Radek, had green eyes and my other ex, Mike, had blue. That's besides the point, my baby's green eyes are the best and I'd get lost in my her sweet green eyes and her perfect smile. She makes me so happy and super hyper!!! Everyday my love for her grows bigger and bigger...she is the one I live for. <3

Taking it easy

The best thing about my girl is that she takes my feelings into consideration. It goes both ways. I'm not ever about being controlling, just when you open up with one another you compromise in a relationship so that one doesn't feel left out. That's how things don't get pent up inside, trying to hold in what you truly feel and then end up blowing up at the other person. That's how things end up being taken the wrong way on both ends. Mixed communication and hidden agendas just end up in fighting and eventually breaking up.

I feel so relaxed and content that I have no worries about what's my baby's next move. She doesn't give me a reason to anyways. I didn't even tell her to delete her ex. I did express once how I felt about my girl being flirted by others, but that was it. Of course, not only does her ex know that we are in a relationship, it's obvious by the numerous YouTube vids posted on her fb page and comments that I put on her page. Yes everyone can see us back and forth calling each other moro mu, my love, my gf...um yeah that should be the biggest hint of all. Which all in all means, BACK OFF BITCHES!! Ha ha I'm so funny, I crack myself up! Basically my sweet is one hell of an amazing girl...she makes me feel whole! <3

Missing her

I don't know how I do this distance thing again and not have my baby with me. I want to feel her, hold her and touch her. I want to experience loving her face to face. It's just not fair, that I'm here and she's there. When you love someone though, no matter how far they are you go the distance. Today is one of those days that I want her close and I just want to snuggle with her and hold her in my arms. I need her, all the days of my life.

I love her!

My gf deleted her ex off fb! Now we can be left in peace! That's love baby! Her ex won't create drama and meddle with our relationship and lives! I have the best gf in the world!!! That's amore...mi amor!!!!! <3

Respect

So my gf and I talked about this before when we were talking on Skype, about one of my pet peeves, which is when someone flirts with my gf. Most especially, when that person knows that they are in a relationship. It's all about respect. My baby said that she deletes what the person does or she tells that person to stop it and if they keep doing it then she will eventually delete the person. Well she deleted the post from her stalking ex, which was cool bcuz she doesn't want to hurt my feelings. The fact that she told me about it was refreshing, I love her honesty and with that I feel secure and trust her with all that I got! <3

Move along

Seriously can the ex just give up already? Stupid fb. She needs to move on my gf is taken! Why can't she get the picture? I know my gf is hot and simply irresistible! She's mine! We're in a relationship damn it...damn home wrecker...u had your chance. Your loss! You fucked up (literally more than once)! Move your herpes ass on to someone else!

Whatever it takes

True love exists and NOTHING (not time, not money, not distance) will ever stop me from having it! I will do whatever it takes to be with my baby because being a libra and having my love...I'll go all the way just to be with her. If that's where my heart leads me to...then I need to follow my heart, that's all. <3

Men

I'm getting annoyed and agitated about guys who keeps coming up to me and asking me all different things. I have stalkers and pervs and there comes to a point when enough is enough!!! And I don't even like guys, but I can't tell them that because then even more they won't leave me alone! I can't even try to be friendly with them because they take it the wrong way! I want to punch someone in the face! Argh!

Out of place

There is nothing more that I want then to be with my girl at this very moment. I don't want to be here, my patience has worn thin. I'm there where she is and I don't want to turn back. I need her badly!

I'm gonna crash

I fall asleep writing I'm my blog. I'm gonna hit the bed, before i crash on this blog.
Good night.

Catch up

So I've been slacking on my blog. Also me and my girl write so much that it's hard to keep up and update. It's a lot of work, especially on my phone.

Libra & Taurus

Pretty much my baby is sweet perfection and I can't wait to see her beautiful face, her amazing green eyes, hear her sexy sweet accent and just enjoy her lovely company! I love everything about her, we are so much alike. I'm just the artsy part of her and she is the science part of me.

I love her shy, bashful nature. I love her sexual jokes (like mine). I love her in her glasses, even if she doesn't like them. I love her blonde hair and of course green eyes. I love that she loves music as much as me. I love her need for speed. I love her party girl mode. I love her sweet lips and the tiny mole above it. I love all her tats. I love her washboard abs. I love her long, sexy legs. I love how sexy she looks when she smokes. I love how i can easily put a huge smile on her face whenever I dedicate anything to her. I love that she sings softly to me. I love her romantic nature. I love her adventurous outdoorsy personality. I can go on forever on this list, but it's time for me to sleep. Last for now, I love how she makes me smile and how awesome she makes me feel! I love everything about her and I wouldn't change her for the world!

Good night.

Rant

I don't know why I've been getting all the creepy guys lately. Why can't I get stalked by pretty non heterosexual woman (who aren't sluts)? Oh yeah because I'm in Chicago or USA for that matter. Hehe well I gotta be picky, I have the right to be. My baby's the perfect one, I choose her!

Waiting for my love

I can't wait for my love to get back so we can talk. I've missed her like crazy. I just hope her ex will leave her alone. Don't want her around dirty hoes! I want my baby clean! I love her with all my heart...<3

Eating Greek Style

Ok this made me laugh from my fb status a yr ago today (so true): Had a nice time at Natasa's bday party, her mom yet again kept piling on the food. Non stop eating in Greek territory, just when I think my meal is over they add another pound of food onto my plate. OPA!

Guy friends are great

I think I have more guy friends than girl friends. The only thing I dislike about having guy friends is that they think that they have a chance with me. If only I found men attractive I wouldn't have such a problem, but unfortunately that is not the case.

My baby's going back this time

I know my love is going to be missing Greece, but I've been missing her too. So she'll have more of me back at Abdn and more lovin' from me. God I love her so much, she's my angel sent from above. <3

I feel at home

I feel at home when I go to the city. Not the area where I go to my old job, but just the freedom of walking around getting everywhere without needing a car. I did the photo shoot last night at Pilsen, in the center of the art district. Afterwards I ate and talked and drank some wine. Later in the night my friend invited me over at his place.

I cabbed from Pilsen back to the River North area to the lofts over there. Went through Greektown, was nostalgic. So as I got over to my friends place he got me some chilled wine. More drinking for the night, it wasn't just any kind of wine, he got me some Greek wine (which I might add was very good)!

By that time, I was a bit tipsy from the wine when I left Pilsen and then more glasses of wine that I had at his place. We talked and I had a smoke, yes I do that once in awhile. Then we headed up to the balcony area. There were a lot if people sitting up there just chilling out. The view was freaking amazing of the Chicago skyline. So we hung up there and chilled and catching up on things.

It was a good time up on the balcony. Then we headed back down, to get some food. By this point, I was a little more than tipsy. We were at his place and then he grabbed me and tried to kiss me and I pushed him off. He was like come on, please! He's like I know you really love your girl, but just a little kiss. I was like no. He was saying he wanted to do more and couldn't believe how much control I had to resist his advances.

Well for one, I love my girl so much. I wouldn't ever go there. I know karma is a bitch and what comes around, goes around. Secondly, I'm not a ho and I don't go around fucking around with people the minute they pay attention to me. Yup, I have class and respect myself and I respect my baby. Lastly, I'm 100% gay so there isn't anything that would remotely attract me to that, yes he's a good-looking guy - I can appreciate a good-looking man but that's as far as it goes.

So anyways we talked about relationships, he was saying that there is something I like about the long distance. I told him because it's hard to find attractive femme woman here in Chicago, who aren't solely based on looks alone. He was like, yeah but I think you enjoy the freedom without being too attached seeing them every second. That was his theory, I said maybe it is but I didn't have a relationship where they were there every minute so I have nothing to compare it to. So we went on talking about that.

Then he was telling me how proud he was of me with how my business and how much of the photography biz I had learned since we last seen each other. Then by 12am I had to leave to catch my train, did t want to sleep at his place. I didn't get home until 2am.

Bits n pieces of our convo

She's everything and more of what I've ever hoped for <3