Lost

My world just fell apart at my feet. My smile has quickly disappeared again. I feel so numb and empty inside. I can't think straight, I just want to wake up from this nightmare. I don't know why my gf had dumped me. Something happened after Valentine's Day that I just can't place. I really don't understand. She went from saying she loves me to telling me that I'm too much for her. I'm supposed to be flying to her in 31 days and now I really don't know what to do. I wish my ex is right about her saying she'll be coming back to me, but I don't know. It's scary that it's in a month and not enough time to make anything with her. I have to go Scotland no matter what, one way or another. Why me? Please when I go to sleep, when I wake up this is all just a dream. I'm back to where I started again, not caring about a thing.

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