Overlooked.

How do I treat people that I don’t care for or deal with? I ignore them or pretend I’m too busy or I have to go somewhere; I turn the cheek the other way. I make excuses so that I don’t feel like I’m hurting the other person’s feelings even though they have some kind of emotional attachment for me. I talk them because I’m bored; I don’t expect much more out of it but just a friendship when the other wants more. It’s kind of a bitchy thing to do right? So why do I put up with it? I question why I feel this way towards a certain someone when it's happening to me, at the same time I start to understand what's going on because I’ve done it myself. I’ve been doing it for the longest time. But now I’m on the receiving end. I hate that I love someone and instead of turning my head the other way – I put up with it because…what the fuck, I don’t know why I feel this way. Why is it so hard for me to walk away? Why can’t I just let it go like the others? Why can’t I block it out like it doesn’t matter? Why do I love you so fucking much? It’s so unfair. I hate myself!

"Hate That I Love You"

[Rihanna:]That's how much I love you

That's how much I need you

And I can't stand you

Must everything you do make me wanna smile

Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]But you won't let me

You upset me girl

And then you kiss my lips

All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)

Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]But I hate it...

You know exactly what to do

So that I can't stay mad at you

For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]But I hate it...You know exactly how to touch

So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more

Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)

I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)

And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)

But I just can't let you go

And I hate that I love you so (oh..)

[Ne-Yo:]You completely know the power that you have

The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]Said it's not fair

How you take advantage of the fact

That I... love you beyond the reason why

And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]And I hate how much I love you girl

I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)

And I hate how much I love you girl

But I just can't let you go

But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me

And your kiss won't make me weak

But no one in this world knows me the way you know me

So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]Yeah... Oh...

[Rihanna:]That's how much I love you (as much as I need you)

That's how much I need you (oh..)

That's how much I love you (oh..)

As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]And I hate that I love you so

And I hate how much I love you boy

I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)

And I hate how much I love you boy

But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)

And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so...