Mother Mother

What makes me mad is having my mom try to understand me, but all she does is bring me down. Instead of trying to be happy for me, what I do is never good enough. How is she supposed to get my vote on best mother of the year?

I tell her about my ADHD and she gets so pissed off. She keeps saying, "you are not stupid." How many times do I have to explain to her what ADHD consists of? Then she tells me not to let everyone know that I have it, like she is ashamed. The only one I'm telling it to is her because I'm trying to teach her about it. But she doesn't want to hear it. She just wants me to keep it to myself and pretend it doesn't exist. Sad.

She feels the same way about my sexuality. She will never accept that I'm gay. It's just too bad for her if she decides to exclude herself from who I love. She will forever be unhappy with my decision because I'm going to ultimately end up with a girl.

My mom makes me feel like I will never amount to anything. As much as I want to pretend it doesn't matter what she thinks, it does bother me. Why can't she just be happy for me? I'm not going to be with a man. As my sweet green eyes said, "it doesn't mean we can't have the same lifestyle as a straight couple - we could have every bit of the same life as any other."