Who am I?

Why can't people just accept that I will be with a woman! Why can people just understand? My cousin is pissing me off saying that I need to get married already. That I should have already been by this time and have kids already. She's like look my sister beat us. Who gives a shit!!! Marriage and kids is not a fucking competition! And my mom keeps telling me the same, I want you to find a guy and have kids. Someone who will take care of you. What in the world? It's like she forgot I ever heard relations with a girl. When something about gays and lesbians come on tv she always says, "shit", and then changes the channel. I'm fucking right there and I hear you. As much as I want to say I don't care, I do about this. It hurts me and I wish that I can be accepted. I can't change who I am and how I feel. She thinks I need a man to have a baby and all that shit. My gf is like, "we don't need a man to have what straight couples do." "And tell your mom it's possible to have a baby, hello!!! just ask me genetic doctor here". Her exact words.

I don't want to be here anymore. I want to be far away from all this negativity. I want to stay with my baby...one way ticket and never come back. I just want to be with my love, who loves me back and doesn't want me to change who I am. She loves me for me. ='[